Tipping the scales.

What a difference a year makes. The cardigan can only hide so much!

I’ve joined Weight Watchers…again. I know, I know, I said I’d never do it, but the scales had ticked over to my dreaded number and I had to take action. 

It was the number that makes me say “No more”. 

The number that makes me say “Katie, what the hell are you playing at?”. 

The number that makes me run to the nearest Weight Watchers meeting to declare allegiance to the points system and swear never to eat peanut butter again. 

So back I am, handing money over to a not particularly slim woman to tell me how much I weigh on her scales, which seem to be completely different to those I have at home. 

Talk about a way to boost self esteem on a Wednesday lunch time. 

Back I go to trying really hard until about 3pm when my brain says “but chocolate would taste soooo good right now”. 

Back I go, four weeks in wondering whether I should just stay the slightly frumpy size I am because being on a diet is, let’s face it, boring and hard. 

I must admit though I’m having some difficulty with getting into the swing of it this time. 

I have realised since my last stint, thanks to the joy of articles posted on Facebook (that’s how everyone does their research right??) that most fat isn’t actually bad for you and low fat products are probably worse.  

I’ve realised that ‘diet’ drinks generally contain some rubbish sweeteners which, let’s face it, aren’t great for you and don’t taste good. (The research on how bad they actually are for you differs greatly however). 

I’ve realised that I have no time for cooking lovely meals when I get home because if I don’t get Charlotte in bed by 7.15 bedtime is fucked until about 11pm and I’m ready to kill. 

I’ve also realised that trying to loose weight on a diet whilst also trying to get my head around a gluten free diet is pretty impossible. 

I’ve also realised (although I did know this before) that cooking for one is utterly shit and generally ends in loads of food waste, a fairly dull meal and usually a way too late dinner time so I don’t enjoy it anyway. 

So I have to find away to get through the next two months (it was a three month pass) and lose weight without following the plan at all. Easy huh!

The reason for this particular blog post with added awful photos is so I have some accountability, other than lying to the woman who asks me how my weeks been every week. 
I will get back to feeling happy and healthy in my own skin and now is the time to do it…just maybe not how the slimming clubs would want me to do it. 

Still not perfect but way less lumps and bumps than now!

Can it be done? Share your hints and tips in the comments please! You’re all in the circle of trust now  (mines quite a round circle at the mo!), I need your help! 

Food for thought…

On New Year’s Eve 2013/14 I decided to make a resolution. Something I always half heartedly do because everyone else is, but this time it was going to be the opposite of what most people were probably promising to themselves. Mine was to stop worrying about my weight.

I had finally come to the conclusion that I would have enough to deal with in the coming year and the last thing I needed was more time in my life being taken over by thinking about food and what I could and couldn’t have and all the guilt and stress that goes along with it. I also couldn’t afford to keep paying the monthly Weight Watchers subscription, especially as it only seemed to produce me putting the same pound on and taking it off over and over again and demoralising me on a weekly basis when I stepped on the scales!!

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So since then I have eaten when I want and generally what I want. I have never just eaten junk food and I do love cooking when I have the time but I am also partial to a (big) piece of cake and a glass of wine as often as possible.

Since January I have lost 10lbs.

This may not seem like much or anything worthy of a picture of me with massive trousers on and holding the waistband, showing how much I’ve lost. Hell, I haven’t even gone down a trouser size! But it has brought me back into a weight I feel happy and comfortable in. Rather than bursting at the seams I am comfortably wearing a size 14 pair of jeans, and look pretty good in them, if I do say so!

I have realised that this change is just me getting – naturally – back to me. Not the depressed, sad, comfort eating Katie but the happy (ish), confident, fun Katie. (A bit of stress never hurts either I suppose!) I am starting to look and feel like a person I am happy with and other people are starting to notice it too. I am never going to be skinny, nor would I want to be as I love my curves, but if you are struggling to take control of your weight at a stressful time then sometimes I would suggest that less is more and don’t be hard on yourself!